I got back from NTS Camp about a week ago and boy has my life dramatically changed since then.
It was then and there, through the preaching and the worship and everything of such that I fully devoted my life to Jesus. For most of my life its always been one foot in, one foot out. I would always think that God was ok with me sinning because he would forgive me just because I believed in him. That's not quite the case. Forgiveness is a hard thing. Your past can be a hard thing. I just feel like God placed me in the situations I was in at camp to be a light to shine to other people.
My past has been hard especially with people hurting me, judging me, and so on. I felt like they didn't need my forgiveness because they would just end up hurting me all over again. I feel like God was calling me then and there to just forgive those "friends" and to move on with my life. Why was I sooo focused on the past, when my past doesn't define my future, and boy does my future look brighter than ever.
Just a day after camp ended, I got a text from one of my best friends ever. We have been Best Friends since like 3rd grade! He shared with me some stuff that was going on in his life, and one of them was that he was BiSexual. This was a huge pill to swallow because he knows that I don't agree with that kind of stuff. He knows that I am a Christian, but he just had to get that off his chest. The fact that he never told me about that at all kind of worried me. It also kind of hurt me just because we were best friends and he should've told me.
I just felt like I needed to forgive him in that moment. I just said "Its Ok." As a sign of nonjugmental gestures. He didn't even know that I was hurt by it. Then he texted me back asking if we can still be friends, and of course I said, "Of Course." I decided right then and there that I would forgive him for all the hurt that he had caused me. I just remembered NTS camp, and forgave him just like that!
It honestly feels so good that I could've been a part of an experience like that and I wish that everybody would've gotten to be a part of this. It just makes me so happy seeing peoples lives turn to God in times of trouble. That's exactly what I saw at NTS. It was so unbelievable. Words can not describe it.
